Tuesday, November 17, 2009 @ 4:44 PM
i've decided
aft a whole morning of thinking n thinking... i've decided..
i will stop being affected.. its no point.
wad eva gonna happen, let it happen(good/bad).. then next time then see how.
coz i wanna go chalets wit a happy heart n not a heavy heart! (:
but my only worry now is: how long can tis last??
hmmm shall not think much now.. gonna prepare for e chalets(:
many things to do man!
no time for all these(:
n when i start work, tts when im seriously gonna be busy n no time for all these(:
yea yea(: going off to fetch laura ready(:
i will stop being affected.. its no point.
wad eva gonna happen, let it happen(good/bad).. then next time then see how.
coz i wanna go chalets wit a happy heart n not a heavy heart! (:
but my only worry now is: how long can tis last??
hmmm shall not think much now.. gonna prepare for e chalets(:
many things to do man!
no time for all these(:
n when i start work, tts when im seriously gonna be busy n no time for all these(:
yea yea(: going off to fetch laura ready(:
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
@ 2:05 PM
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
@ 11:01 AM
trying...
haiz... mood hvn't been good....
did smt yest n felt bad though.. shouldn't hv done it...
then down wit fever... hope by tmr im well.. if not can't go chalet then die...
n been telling myself not to be affected by everything tts happening when in fact, these things can't be ignored.. i'll hv to face it..
n im Trying to face it though its real tough but i know i can't run away forever.. its not gonna help..
better to face it n solved it once n for all..
n now.. im seriously TRYING not to be affected by the thing tt affect me e most!!
i dunno wats happening n i dunno how came it turned out tis way....
on e surface im like smiling smiling but deep inside? im hoping, wondering, praying, wishing tt it will stop..
but god didn't ans me tis time...
is it time to let go?? im scared.. i dun wan to... but how?
cried times n agn, prayed times n agn n its all not helping..
i dunno.. im jus lost...
someone told me to not to be bothered coz no point.. no point to even cry because no one will know.. i guess tt person is rite.. but its difficult..
n i think im seriously affected.. if not, i won't even break down agn during worship last sunday..
i couldn't concentrate for worship.. everything is jus stiring inside me... n i prayed..
well although its rather embarassing to cry infront of everyone but indeed it made me felt a lil better though not completely healed..
but at least now i know daddy jesus is still here for me(:
n his teaching me smt which i'hv yet to know/learn/realise/found out.
well SERIOUSLY hope all these gonna be over soon! seriously..
i dun wan to be bothered/affected/trapped by it anymore.
n i know god is in control for all these(:
did smt yest n felt bad though.. shouldn't hv done it...
then down wit fever... hope by tmr im well.. if not can't go chalet then die...
n been telling myself not to be affected by everything tts happening when in fact, these things can't be ignored.. i'll hv to face it..
n im Trying to face it though its real tough but i know i can't run away forever.. its not gonna help..
better to face it n solved it once n for all..
n now.. im seriously TRYING not to be affected by the thing tt affect me e most!!
i dunno wats happening n i dunno how came it turned out tis way....
on e surface im like smiling smiling but deep inside? im hoping, wondering, praying, wishing tt it will stop..
but god didn't ans me tis time...
is it time to let go?? im scared.. i dun wan to... but how?
cried times n agn, prayed times n agn n its all not helping..
i dunno.. im jus lost...
someone told me to not to be bothered coz no point.. no point to even cry because no one will know.. i guess tt person is rite.. but its difficult..
n i think im seriously affected.. if not, i won't even break down agn during worship last sunday..
i couldn't concentrate for worship.. everything is jus stiring inside me... n i prayed..
well although its rather embarassing to cry infront of everyone but indeed it made me felt a lil better though not completely healed..
but at least now i know daddy jesus is still here for me(:
n his teaching me smt which i'hv yet to know/learn/realise/found out.
well SERIOUSLY hope all these gonna be over soon! seriously..
i dun wan to be bothered/affected/trapped by it anymore.
n i know god is in control for all these(:
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
Saturday, November 14, 2009 @ 10:06 PM
Fuck You -lily allen
this vid is cute.
Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of all the
hatred you harbor
So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who
can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval
Fuck you (Fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of
being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it
Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a
life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where
your soul should be
Your losing control of it and
it's really distasteful
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck yooooou
You say
You think we need to go to war
well you're already in one
Cause it's people like you
who need to get slew
No one wants your opinion
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you
Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of all the
hatred you harbor
So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who
can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval
Fuck you (Fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of
being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it
Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a
life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where
your soul should be
Your losing control of it and
it's really distasteful
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck yooooou
You say
You think we need to go to war
well you're already in one
Cause it's people like you
who need to get slew
No one wants your opinion
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch
Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
Friday, November 13, 2009 @ 7:27 PM
HELP!!!!!
WHY GOD?!?!? Y ARE ALL THIS HAPPENING???
EVEN IF ALL THESE ARE TO TAKE PLACE, Y ALL SAME DAY?????
i know its my punishment.. but god, its too heavy n i can't breath.........
i wanna be healed... i seriously do....
will u pls save me???
i wanna be e happy n carefree girl i used to be...
all this is seriously stressing me out........
lord will u pls take them away??? pls................................
now is like one thing happening aft another wan cool down also cannot... haiz.......
EVEN IF ALL THESE ARE TO TAKE PLACE, Y ALL SAME DAY?????
i know its my punishment.. but god, its too heavy n i can't breath.........
i wanna be healed... i seriously do....
will u pls save me???
i wanna be e happy n carefree girl i used to be...
all this is seriously stressing me out........
lord will u pls take them away??? pls................................
now is like one thing happening aft another wan cool down also cannot... haiz.......
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
@ 7:24 PM
shut e F*** off!
F*** F*** F***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TDY IS SERIOUSLY NT A GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jus read smt from e net n i think i seriously read it at e wrong time man!
now i feel so offended n offended ppl(i guess)!!!!!!!!!!!!
n thnx to all those, i think i'll only go for one day......
next day got family prob to do n its seriously another unhappy thing!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
TDY IS SERIOUSLY NT A GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jus read smt from e net n i think i seriously read it at e wrong time man!
now i feel so offended n offended ppl(i guess)!!!!!!!!!!!!
n thnx to all those, i think i'll only go for one day......
next day got family prob to do n its seriously another unhappy thing!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
@ 6:53 PM
HAIZ.....
now everything is out......
n im seriously breaking down!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was like hoping, praying, wishing tt i was jus thinking too much! but....
hey i seriously dun wish all tis to happen!
we'll still be best friends(: but jus give me time k?
now im like confused, sad, uncertaing of future and many more..........
shall say no more...........
but jus know one thing: im not angry neither am i blaming u.
n im seriously breaking down!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was like hoping, praying, wishing tt i was jus thinking too much! but....
hey i seriously dun wish all tis to happen!
we'll still be best friends(: but jus give me time k?
now im like confused, sad, uncertaing of future and many more..........
shall say no more...........
but jus know one thing: im not angry neither am i blaming u.
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
@ 6:15 PM
pls dun ignore me......
hey idk if u will read tis but i think u will..
can stop playing MIA??
-nev reply..
-change url..
-wats next?
haiz... haven't been really happy tis few days.. n i got e feeling im gonna *quarrel* wit quite afew ppl.. i dun wan to but those ppl are really pushing me!
mood bad, ppl forcing me, family got prob, can't contact tt person n idk y...............
tis is so my mood for e past few days because of everything tts happening..
吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法爱情割舍
我不能睡
我不能够不能够不爱了
吃不能吃睡不能睡
...
will i see u agn??
can stop playing MIA??
-nev reply..
-change url..
-wats next?
haiz... haven't been really happy tis few days.. n i got e feeling im gonna *quarrel* wit quite afew ppl.. i dun wan to but those ppl are really pushing me!
mood bad, ppl forcing me, family got prob, can't contact tt person n idk y...............
tis is so my mood for e past few days because of everything tts happening..
吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法爱情割舍
我不能睡
我不能够不能够不爱了
吃不能吃睡不能睡
...
will i see u agn??
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
Thursday, November 12, 2009 @ 3:53 PM
Why Why Why???
why are u deceiving me once and agn...
do u know how much effort i had to put in to trust u agn aft each time u tell me a lie??
y can't u jus tell me the truth??
now i really dunno if i should trust u...
even if i wan to, i dunno how to...
haiz....
i guess its gonna be over soon.....................
Laurina.Me is sad agn....
do u know how much effort i had to put in to trust u agn aft each time u tell me a lie??
y can't u jus tell me the truth??
now i really dunno if i should trust u...
even if i wan to, i dunno how to...
haiz....
i guess its gonna be over soon.....................
Laurina.Me is sad agn....
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
@ 9:10 AM
wow!!!!!!!!!! O levels are FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
my god! its so fast la! now its like i'hv completed anther chapter of life! wow!
but seriously speaking, i wasn't very happy abt it.
ok im happy that there's no more exams, no more tests, no need to study anymore!
but... come to think of it, all my friends are like slowly going back one by one..
all going different way..
all e fun times during lesson, during sch, during recess, is so not gonna happen agn..
haiz... shall stop thinking abt it.. e more i think e sadder i get..
now im seriously worried.. looking at e situation, i dun think i can see it agn.. haiz.. idk la..
laurina.me is sad + confused.. not wanting to let go..
my god! its so fast la! now its like i'hv completed anther chapter of life! wow!
but seriously speaking, i wasn't very happy abt it.
ok im happy that there's no more exams, no more tests, no need to study anymore!
but... come to think of it, all my friends are like slowly going back one by one..
all going different way..
all e fun times during lesson, during sch, during recess, is so not gonna happen agn..
haiz... shall stop thinking abt it.. e more i think e sadder i get..
now im seriously worried.. looking at e situation, i dun think i can see it agn.. haiz.. idk la..
laurina.me is sad + confused.. not wanting to let go..
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
Wednesday, November 11, 2009 @ 9:24 AM
whoo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!! tdy last paper liao!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY FREEDOM IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaz!!
but now i also jam...
jus 1wk ago i was like" wah aft paper kinda free can rest rest rest!"
now i was like" WTH!!!! im super ultra packed n i hv to make alot decision!"
this are those thing on my schedule now:
11nov:
-going out wit friends, 530pm?
-Prayer meet, 7pm
-job interview?
-CLASHED!
12nov:
-going out wit friends, 3++ 4pm?
-hv to go laura's sch 3pm
-job interview?
-CLASHED!
13nov:
-job interview?
-BBQ, 7pm
-Cell group, 7pm
-CLASHED!
14nov:
-wanted go airport send ray, late afternoon-evening
-hv to babysit, lateafternoon-evening
-CLASHED!
15nov:
-CG planned to go out aft church
-maybe hv to go home celebrate laura's birthday, aft church
-shawn's bday
-CLASHED!
16nov:
-asked to go for leadership programme (not confirm yet)
17nov:
-asked to go for leadership programme (not confirm yet)
18nov:
-asked to go for leadership programme (not confirm yet)
-class chalet
-CLASHED!
19nov:
-Class chalet
20nov:
-class chalet
-go airport send wendy
-church chalet
-CLASHED!
21nov:
-church chalet
-go airport send diep
-CLASHED!
i wanna die man!!!!!!!!!!! first time in my life got so many things clashed altogether day aft another....
last time was like everything will jus take its place nicely, seldom hv clashed n even in those things on same day they will somehow be on diff timing.
but now??? all smae day same timing!!! faint man!!!
haiz... i havent make any decision yet...
oh wrong i made a decision!
i'll decide which one i wan go on the day itself or jus e day before(:
kk gtg bye..
but now i also jam...
jus 1wk ago i was like" wah aft paper kinda free can rest rest rest!"
now i was like" WTH!!!! im super ultra packed n i hv to make alot decision!"
this are those thing on my schedule now:
11nov:
-going out wit friends, 530pm?
-Prayer meet, 7pm
-job interview?
-CLASHED!
12nov:
-going out wit friends, 3++ 4pm?
-hv to go laura's sch 3pm
-job interview?
-CLASHED!
13nov:
-job interview?
-BBQ, 7pm
-Cell group, 7pm
-CLASHED!
14nov:
-wanted go airport send ray, late afternoon-evening
-hv to babysit, lateafternoon-evening
-CLASHED!
15nov:
-CG planned to go out aft church
-maybe hv to go home celebrate laura's birthday, aft church
-shawn's bday
-CLASHED!
16nov:
-asked to go for leadership programme (not confirm yet)
17nov:
-asked to go for leadership programme (not confirm yet)
18nov:
-asked to go for leadership programme (not confirm yet)
-class chalet
-CLASHED!
19nov:
-Class chalet
20nov:
-class chalet
-go airport send wendy
-church chalet
-CLASHED!
21nov:
-church chalet
-go airport send diep
-CLASHED!
i wanna die man!!!!!!!!!!! first time in my life got so many things clashed altogether day aft another....
last time was like everything will jus take its place nicely, seldom hv clashed n even in those things on same day they will somehow be on diff timing.
but now??? all smae day same timing!!! faint man!!!
haiz... i havent make any decision yet...
oh wrong i made a decision!
i'll decide which one i wan go on the day itself or jus e day before(:
kk gtg bye..
still waiting...
n missing him....
n missing him....
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